Karma??

Sunday night is when it all started. My mind was racing and I knew the forecast for this week. My pathetic self centeredness, better known as "I", needed to get a ride to Lower Trestles. After talking to my parents and couple of friends I was shut down but still determined to hitch a ride. As Monday morning hit I glared at the computer screen watching the Lowers cam show beautiful A-frames continuously roll in one after another. Out of no where a friend IMs me and asks what I'm doing today. After a brief conversation I was running to pack. I found my ride and was headed to Lower Trestles. As she drove up I quickly loaded my gear into her car and we were off. It was an agonizing drive due to my anxiety and visions of perfection. We exited the 5 fwy and were accompanied by half of Orange County. As I knew my location and destination my "driver" did not. She was just along for the adventure and happy to be with me. We finally reached the sand and I dropped my pack and surfboard and quickly examined the waves and crowd. Trying to not rush putting my wetsuit and thin layer of sunscreen on my cancer riden nose, I had totally forgot how I had gotten to were I was and whom I was with. My overjoyed self was filled with excitement and pure stoke. It was a clear slightly breezy late morning, the water was crystal and the suns energy was pumping through my veins. After a 3 hour plus session I was deprived, perplexed, and sulking in the sand. My mind my scrambled for I was envisioning a perfect day, but now it had turned into a anger driven afternoon. As I stripped off my wetsuit and threw on my trunks I laid next to a beautiful girl wondering how my wonderfully planned day had turned into a depressing slump of an afternoon. Eating a sandwich and chatting with the girl that laid beside me I tried to turn my negativity into positive vibes by trying to find the good in this god blessed beautiful day. My head cleared and I thought another hour would not hurt my chances of bettering my day. The day was growing old and I was beginning to get the chills. I exited the water in a tad bit happier mood but i was still greatly disappointed with self. I felt like I had been relinquished of all my confidence. As my girl and I drove home I wondered if by letting my selfish desires get in the way of having a nice day with a friend ruined what the day really could of lived up to. I ruined my self by my self and all in all, I learned not to take friends willing to put up with me for granted and just go with the flow.

Put to an End

As the adventure, as some may say vacation, started last saturday it has now come to a hault in San Jose. As we are housed in a family freinds home, are car is dead and now it is time to relax and revitalize. Many discoveries have been made and footprints left but I would not change our situation. I shall be back with more words.